Wednesday, July 16, 2008

I don't have a title for this. Cause I can't make any sense out of it...




What do you do when you find out that the people you trust, aren't the people you know?

They take you out for McDonalds at 3 in the morning. Tell you their deepest most darkest secrets. Talk to you and make sure that everything's all right. Check for cuts and bruises when you fall. Tell you that everything's going to be all right. Take you around to places just for the fun of it and basically enjoy each others company because it's just plain good.



What would you do, when you find out that the person you lend your laptop to, go out at 3 in the morning with, hang around because it's fun, keep company when bored and pour your heart out to cause you think they care and are worth your trust, actually finds you annoying and hates you. ... .. .

I'm so confused. 

Why fake it and live a lie that hurts yourself so much?



Why hurt me later? Couldn't you just keep your distance from me from the beginning? 



If you didn't like me for who I am... why would you tell people that you were my friend and never let anything or anyone hurt me?


Why hurt me now?


15 comments:

Armando Torres said...

That's sad. Those types of people are cowards. They rather not confront the issue and instead rather be a hypocritical piece of lying garbage. They run away from being a truthful and trustful person; putting up a facade and hiding their ugly faces.

The hypocrisy of some people amazes me when it doesnt even make sense how they themselves can say someone is so annoying and even hate that person when they themselves hang around that person. That kind of hypocrisy hurts the brain.

That fact, that level of superficiality makes them annoying and enough to hate but you dont stoop to that level. You dont let them get the best of you. There is enough there to hate and be annoyed from the other person but you dont stoop to their level. You arent the one that hates them and you sure as hell arent the hypocrit. The hardest part is accepting the hypocrisy as real and then deciding what you are going to do with this realization.

Its easier for these types of people to look at their ugly fake face in the mirror rather than letting anyone else see it. They run away and store it up inside just to create the facade of being trustful when in reality they are just hiding. Thats sad.

Hope I helped out :)

Steven said...

I am actually confused what to say. But I'll try to write what i have in my mind when i read your posts. I am having a hard time to understand the situation but finally i got a grip.

Yes i agree with torees' comment that this kid of hypocrisy is such a pain. That this kind of people hate a certain person yet he/she still hang around that person it might build up a lie that can hurt both people in the end and that is happening to you.

I know what it feels like when your most trustful person betray your trust. I can't really tell much though. All i've learned from my past of this kind of thing is to be a little picky on being friends with someone, Although i don't know what my friends have in their head.

Sometimes people gets to hate others in the process of relationship. When being a friends, sometimes a person can change to hate you because of some trivial things. Maybe something very wrong had happened between you and your friends without you realizing it.

I'm really sorry if my comment is somewhat strange because i can't really put it into words nicely as torres do. Just don't let your sadness overcome you. Cheer up!

cj said...

great write up.......didn't thought i could get famous from this but please be reminded that i did told you about how i like to be in comfort zone while working.......my performance is determined by my focus on my job......but with you keep coming to the console!!!!!!and do all the talking in the world!!!!!if you were in my shoes wouldn't you be feeling irritated......and about a fake facade.....no i was not trying to pull one.......i was just trying to be nice and not tell it to your face......and about the lappie!!!!!i thought it was a favour!!!!now i seriously regret borrowing it from you......sheesh this is nuff bullshit......pure form of stupidity!!!!!!!!wish you all the best!!!!!!

Alexis-Marie said...

Hey Armando..

Yeah you did help. I feel your words..It's exactly how I feel inside. I really wish I knew what changed everything. or.. maybe things were just suppose to be this way. Wish it wasn't so.

Alexis-Marie said...

Steven... :)


Oh wow. you actually read it till you understood. Thank You.

Yeah I am really trying to move from this. It's a real distraction ya know...

Alexis-Marie said...

cj..

If I was in your shoes, no I wouldn't be irritated.. and I would have handled things differently.

What you did, not telling to my face.. you did behind my back. That's called backstabbing.

And unfortunately for me.. I was forced to listen to it. So yeah. I found out.

You still hurt me. really wished it didn't happen but unfortunately.. it did. So lets just part ways here. Goodbye.

annwyl said...

back stabbing? u should have more then enough common sense to have figured it out urself tht ur disturbing us at work and we happened or used to be nice enuf people to not tell you please fu ck off. and guess wht? u tried to fuck my private life up quietly, how bout making friends with people i know to get to me? aint tht backstabbing? some people are stupid but learn. but i guess ur just born with it

Alexis-Marie said...

Hey annywl,

Well.. I didn't know she was your friend. We met randomly on a chat box. I never talked to her about you and no I don't bother trying to ruin other's lives.

I'm not that sort of a person.

sigh. Sanjeet. I thought you knew me better.

If you would like me to leave you alone. You'd have to do the same.

annwyl said...

oh if u want me to leave u alone you have to do the same sanjeet? no no i will not stop something u started , randomly out of 1000 post an hr u randomly made friends wit some i am close to.hmmmmmmm very nicely planned. and iveseen ur blog is private. i told u i wanna see my name off there and by u going private i cant be sure and i assume its still there so iam still gonna fuck it up/ and dont forget i am from kl esp from setapak so u want me to make things hard its not that hard.

Armando Torres said...

Whoa annwyl, you need to calm down. Whats your problem? You sound maniacal and vindictive. Crazy even. It sounds like you take things too personally and are having a hard time dealing with your paranoia. How bout you just walk away huh? Deal with your emotions on your own time. It doesnt sound like things will be resolved on a comment section of a blog so for the record just calm down, take a deep breath and grow up. You are giving yourself too much credit, thinking people have a plan and are out to get you. Hmmm. Well, I dont know the story and I wont presume I know any part of it but from what I can read here I can see who's being rational and who is being paranoid and vindictive. And dont tell me to butt out because Im sure that is your first response. I just tell it like I see it.

leipzic said...

did it really happen to you or somebody? It's really sad, it's sucks too..

Alexis-Marie said...

hEY Leipzic,

Yeah it really happened to me.
Unfortunately. and yes. It is very sad.

annwyl said...

lol what a bunch of retards who read this blog.

Alexis-Marie said...

annywl...

Thank God you're one of them :)

Anonymous said...

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